superman's assistant please

It's funny how sometimes we know we shouldn't, but we do anyways. Defining them as a moment of weakness, we excuse our somewhat "stupid" behavior. The other night, i had one of those. Woke up at 12:30...I had gone to bed early because i needed sleep for my upcoming exam...anyways, i had one. Sticking my face in my sheets after checking my phone, i balled. hahaha where did it come from you ask? Well, the part of our hearts that seems to escape all emotional trials. The place we shove the ideas that hurt the worst. Except for every once in a while, it overflows a little. I took a drive with my dad today, and saw everyone outside mowing their grass, playing with their kids, walking around, gardening...how small my trouble seemed today. God created this beautiful earth with his very fingers. It's like painting the most perfect picture and bringing it to life. How can i cry for something so small that i have no control over, something that is behind me and in the past? He knows what he's doing, i should let him do it. And to the frustration that made me cry, i can forgive, but i'll never forget. If giving up means forgetting...I forgot. However, there is a power above me that can take all my troubles away and fix what harasses my heart... what a beautiful blessing that is.